It is pretty tough being told you have cancer. There is the numbness, followed by all sorts of feelings and reactions. Then the thoughts come tumbling.

There are considerations about treatment and about practical matters. Over all, there is the fear. Life is going to change - or perhaps not exist for much longer....... And there is the concern for those who would be left behind.

It is not just the cancer > patient= but the whole family. Friends, too, don= t know how to react as often it feeds into their own fears about their health or mortality. Or, too often, it reminds them of losses of their own.

I have decided to set down this very personal story. When distressed, I would sit at my computer and write, setting down exactly how I was feeling. Or I would write letters to my doctor as this was more in the way of talking personally to someone who knew me well and could understand and this helped me clarify my thoughts. For this reason, it is very much in the style of a journal, recording thoughts and feelings. I felt so much hurt and anger and confusion and fear - all natural, I am sure. Originally, it was just letters to people and things I had written in the depths of my despair or indecision. I found it very therapeutic to write down my thoughts and I only wish I had been more regular about it. However, the very effort of trying to continue to exist takes up so much energy.

Personally, I have found it so helpful to read of the experiences of others. One of the things I find hardest is that there is little in the way of support groups. It would give me the utmost satisfaction to be able to get groups of people together to gain strength from each other. I can= t see that happening in the near future, so this is the next best thing.

Although I have decided to take the > alternative= route, that doesn= t mean to say that it is the right choice for everybody. I would advise seeking all the advice you can, making sure you do get the information you need. Then, weigh it all up, and do what feels right for you, deep down in your heart. Then put your very soul into making your chosen path work.

I hope others finding their way along this path will draw comfort from this book, that it can give an insight into the complex mental and emotional struggles that each person will inevitably have to go through. To know you are not alone, that you are not going crazy, that you can get through it is such a comfort, especially in those darker or more inward looking moments.

I don= t know whether I will overcome this. The signs don= t look especially good. But I will continue to do my best to keep my body and mind in the best shape possible. And my spirit is willing. With my strong faith in God, my determination and my love of life, perhaps I will become fully well again. In the meantime, I have gained so much from having cancer. I see it almost as a gift.

Even should I succumb, then this stage of my life will have taught me so much and I am grateful for that. It has also brought my family closer together and improved communication.

So take my personal feelings, treat them gently as you should treat yourself, and know that you can come out the other side a stronger and wiser person, with a much greater love for God's world.
 

5. The Railway Codes
    A Trainspotter's Guide to Intelligent Design

This book cross-connects so many themes of our research by following the railway thread over 40 years of Brian's life. It is as though the other books follow individual vertical threads, the stories of Mary, Ankhsoun, Diana, the Duke of Windsor, Lockerbie, Katrina, etc, but this one is close to horizontal weaving across them all like a shuttle.  There is such powerful evidence of coherent external Intelligent Design as the story in this book gradually unfolds. It goes right back to a particular experience on a Manchester railway station in 1960.   It involved a Stanier pacific, of the Princess class. But that event appears now to be intimately connected with the experiences he was to have in 1986, with Ankhsoun, and in 1997, with Princess Diana. How and why this book came to be written is explained in Mary, Daughter of Elohim.

In Bath in June 2006, where Brian went to take photographs of the ‘Diana Assassination’ place,  he was given strong proof of his theories of prophecy. He had gone to get photographs to do with the past, but before he could do that he was led to take photographs to do with the future. For in Bath that evening not only was there strong evidence of the reality of that Diana prophecy from 1991, and its not being chance, but also an entirely new prophecy, as well as a suggestion of whence that knowledge came.  At first it was a Code he could not break, but he knew he was being given a powerful message.  That certainty came through his being led to see an old steam locomotive on a mainline express  only a minute or two before its departure from Bath. Everything was so precise.  He knew it had to have a meaning. 

Brian only came to understand it all once he got home to Auckland.  He was able to put all the pieces together.  There were so many signs, all elements of the  Hurricane Katrina disaster and its aftermath. It all had to come from ‘The Source’.  His understanding this code provided astonishing evidence of synchronous interaction with some external Source of Intelligence.

The unravelling of the Hurricane Katrina Code is described in detail in this book, as is its role as the next instalment of the End Times sequences which began with the Sumatra Tidal Wave. And remember Katrina came exactly on cue. It was 229 years since the Declaration of Independence and 7 more weeks. ie has the time signature of Code 2297, the identifier as one of the End times events.  To understand the origin of Code 2297 see The Seventh Sign

8. Royal Enigmas

Volume 1 - Diana Beyond the Veil

This book begins by looking at the connections we have had in this world with Britain’s royal family, principally Prince Charles. In his brief period of interest in the newly privatised water industry, I was asked to write a report for him by his then Private Secretary.   The book then goes on to our connections with the House of Windsor from the spirit world with, first, the spirit of the Duke of Windsor and then the spirit of Princess Diana. But the links between them are quite uncanny, powerfully suggestive of Destiny.’

Between 11th and 13th August 1997, I became aware of the spirit of Edward VIII, quite insistent, asking me to write to Mohamed Al Fayed warning him to cancel the sale of the Duke's property which he was putting up for auction to clear the house ‘to make room for his growing family’. The former king gave Fayed a stark warning. I posted a letter conveying this warning to Fayed on 15th August. The warning concerned Fayed and his son.

Apparent coincidences on the night of the 16/17th August suggested that Diana would be killed. It would look like an accident but accident it would not be....... The Web of Destiny suggested 1st September....and a starring role for the British security services. Edward VIII 's stark warning to al Fayed was to be proved both true and timely by the Alma Tunnel crash and subsequent developments.

MI5/MI6 were merely the agents. But who signed the warrant of execution? And who gained most from Diana's death? The answer to the latter question is, of course, the House of Windsor. The grey, wooden Windsor's were no longer outshone by the colourful princess. But the answer to the former question is to be found in a large number of significant coincidences over several years since Diana 's death.  The meaningful coincidences weave the treads of connections through space and time.

A few weeks after her death, we experienced the first of a series of communications from the spirit of Princess Diana herself. Again it was Jenny speaking in a trance. This first instance was triggered by a comment I made about Diana and the Queen Mother from a book which I had been reading. I now realise that my comment must have been like a red rag to a bull and it triggered Diana' s spirit to speak through Jenny' s trance. I was quite surprised at this because I had never been one of Diana's many fans. In fact, almost her first words were "I know you don' t like me...... "

Diana spoke to us at length on that occasion then and did so quite often over the decade since. But the Diana who speaks to us does not sound like the Diana other mediums claim to have received. In fact, as with other spirits who have spoken to us, she never named herself but it was evident from context and coincidence who it was. I fully accept these other mediums were aware of spirits calling themselves Diana but were they really who they claimed to be? Either one or other of these mediums is correct or we are, but the information is so different that we cannot all be correct. Their 'Dianas ' are all love and light and do not wish to speak of the Royal Family. The Diana who spoke to us spoke at length about the Royal Family and of the pain she endured at their hands. There is a sharpness and a wit in her words- a real human being. Despite my being hostile initially, over the weeks and months even I developed a certain sympathy for her, but then I suppose she always had a way with men- well most of the men she met, with one notable exception.

Diana’s words are moving. She tries to explain why and how she went wrong, how she tried, but now how she feels so betrayed by so-called friends, but above all by ‘her boys’, the two worthless princes so worthy now of their father who, with the non-negotiable one, has been so valuable in giving them moral guidance. It is clear why they, too, now have no shame and they too rely on the purveyors of hype and lies to hone an illusion.

How can we prove it is really the spirit of Princess Diana? There is powerful coincidental evidence. But of course, it is only circumstantial.  But that kind of evidence is good enough for courts when they want it to be….. That’s why Barry George is in prison in England for killing Jill Dando and Scott Wilson in New Zealand for the Sounds murders. And Abdel al Megrahi rots in Barlinnie Prison in Glasgow for a non-existent crime.  Pan Am 103 was an accident, massive structural failure on a geriatric plane, not a bomb at all.  All three men are probably innocent. 

But our circumstantial evidence is not wrong. It is forever being reinforced. Read what Diana says and see how the Web of Destiny was woven around her spirit talking to us – reacting with indignation to the sly way her ex-husband slowly slid his mistress into the role of wife. Is it any wonder that Diana feels betrayed – and few people really care. The British today, if the post-Blair, multi-ethnic hotch-potch which is Britain can really be called British, are concerned only with money, their growing wealth in their houses, or debts on their credit cards. What care does the modern Briton have for the things of the spirit?  This book shows how the Web of Destiny was spun around various people and events in 1999, clearly implicating the House of Windsor in the death of the Queen of Hearts.

Of course, other books have claimed to ‘channel Princess Diana’. These entities are impostors, as are all channelled entities. The only genuine communications from beyond the grave come spontaneously and not for lucrative workshops. Price is inversely proportional to Truth. God does not give proof of the hereafter to those with the deepest pockets. They get the best of things in this world. They would be unwise to expect the same in the next.

On 26th March 2006, in the Sunday Mirror, Simone Simmons her former ‘healer’ claimed that some entity that purports to be Diana has spoken to her regularly, giving her blessing to Prince William’s live-in arrangement with Kate Middleton. It is handy for the happy ending lot, but in stark contrast to the real Diana whose comments over his ‘marital’ arrangements are more critical. What is more, she is more concerned with his gross disloyalty to her in his acceptance of the woman who destroyed his mother’s happiness, her marriage, and finally her life.

The truth of the words that come to us being from the spirit of Diana is shown by the complexity of the Web of meaningful coincidences which inter-weave them with our world of space and time. Diana’s words from beyond the grave well sum up that awful family, the Windsors. “The made ice seem warm and caring.” She made this comment on 15th March 1998, by coincidence a date forever associated in history with betrayal and regal murder.

Back to The Death of Princess Diana
Back to A King Warns of Death

Volume 2 - The Quest

June 2005 took me to England. I followed the Voice and the signs to set the date for my journey and the destination. This book is the account of much of that trip.  It puts Diana and Charles in the wider context of the history of the Princes of Wales through the centuries. It also helps authenticates our book Diana Beyond the Veil as the true voice of the spirit of Diana, The Princess of Wales.

My first full day in England was marked by a railway picture on the front page of The Guardian. The main connecting thread of my life has been railways, in particular steam engines. In that picture was the Prince of Wales waiting for an approaching steam train. The date was the 111th anniversary of the birth of the previous Prince of Wales.  That picture echoed the choice which Charles had made on April 9th, but I didn’t see that element at the time. I just thought of the odd coincidence of so many elements of my research on that, my first day in England. The signs and the pointers led me round the south-west of England, linking to Princes of Wales from the past, Alpha to Omega, as it were. The link between nuclear power disaster and the Prince of Wales was strengthened immeasurably.

In Bath, where I went to take photographs of the ‘Diana Assassination’ building, I was given yet further confirmation of my theories of prophecy. For not only was there strong evidence of the reality of the Diana prophecy from 1991, and its not being chance, there came an entirely new prophecy. It was a Code I could not understand, but I knew I was being given a powerful message, again through railways. It was a prophecy of Hurricane Katrina.

Yet more proof of coherent external design came with the arrival of a shipment of second hand books in Auckland from my English trip.  When I finally put the books in my car at the shipping agents, the time was 1114 am on 15th November. The date in England was 14th November, 11.14.05 in American dating, the 57th birthday of Prince Charles. But 1114 is 2 x 557, which links it also to Lockerbie.

As I drove home, with the books, I caught sight of a plane coming in to land, crossing the motorway in its final approach to Auckland Airport. It was Singapore Airlines flight SQ321, the flight I had come back on on 5th August. I took a few photos as the plane crossed my path and then glanced down at the car speedometer. The trip mileage at that very instant was 267.7. Within seconds it was on to 267.8 267.9 It was an incredibly fitting end note. The Code number for that summer 2005 trip had been 2677. This was because the fare had been $2677 and a month after making the booking, the night before I left New Zealand, as I finalised a draft edition to take with me to England, I realised the Lux Aeterna Publishing 10digit ISBN number for the Diana book was 9583606-7-7.

Volume 3 - Land of My Fathers

This book describes the next phase of the Quest, the many strange coincidences which illuminated my journey to the London Bookfair in March 2006, then the subsequent journeys to Paris and North Wales.  That visit linked the places of death for both Princess Diana and the Duke of Windsor.  It really was an Alpha and Omega Quest linking Edward I to Edward VIII, from the first to the last.  Did the messages have to come in Conway, the place created by the man who created the Princes of Wales.  His son was the first Prince of Wales. The warnings in Conway on 14th March, 2006 were so clear.  They spelled out the only choice left for Charles, the last in the line of the Prince of Wales. The message was so clear.  And there was the Signature of proof, of the validity of the signs.  Appropriately enough, it came in the Conway Library booksale.  Later, via Caernarvon,  I travelled to Manchester and there came a vital message in a place linked to my trainspotting childhood and that early vision of 'The Impossible Princess'  in March 1961.  The Sign was Crede Signo.  Believe in the Sign....  I have now for almost a quarter of a century, and my books show the coherence of my experiences from my following of those signs.   So to hell with all the skeptics who dismiss it all as chance.  No one is as blind as those who do not wish to see.  It can only be design.  And a design requires a Designer.  Perhaps the Divine Right of the Kings of England lies in all of this, the final proof of the existence of God, before the End comes.  

 Volume - 4 PenRose

The full extent of the proof in the Web of Destiny of Diana's murder  was not made clear until February 2008, during the Inquest into her death. Of course, the jury came up with the right result, guided by the legal eagle judge. Enquiries always do, just like the Hutton Inquiry did. You can always trust the safe hands of some carefully chosen Learned Judge or other.  But the Priests of Maat should all remember that, though they happily sit in judgement now on all sorts of errors, the time will come when each of them will be Judged.

The extensive Web of alternative evidence is described in detail in this book.  The intricacy of the inter-connection between events in the High Court in London and our lives in New Zealand were truly wyrd.

But why does it matter what happened to Princess Diana?  It doesn't matter to most of the people of Britain now.  Diana's supposed friends have either gone over to the 'New Court' or have found alternative people to use.  But It does seems to matter to the Source, hence the powerful connections which have been made over those final months of the inquest.  It seems that the truth about Diana's end is intricately interwoven wth the End for Man.  The evidence for the former is detailed and powerful.  The evidence for the latter is still accumulating.

 

 Belshazzar 's Feast

This book examines some of the strange omens and coincidences which over the past century  have linked to  the House of Windsor and considers the portents for its future.  A prophetic statement made by the first Labour MP James Keir Hardie in 1894 eerily presaged the events of 1936. Then a strange and significant accident befell the present Prince of Wales on the exact anniversary in 1990 of that prophetic speech of 1894. Now there is talk of a similar 'solution 'linking right back to Keir Hardie 's speech for the present Prince of Wales, as  few people would be happy to see his former mistress eventually elevated to the rank of Queen

The book examines the links between the former Prince of Wales, who subsequently ascended the throne as King Edward VIII in January, 1936, and the late Princess of Wales, Princess Diana.  King Edward VIII abdicated the throne in December 1936 as he was determined to marry an American divorcee, Wallis Simpson. What was the name of Wallis Simpson 's first husband? Rather eerily, it was Earl Spencer, a US Naval pilot. When Lady Diana Spencer walked down the aisle of St Paul's Cathedral on that fateful day in July 1981, it was on the arm of her father, Earl Spencer. It is purely a coincidence of names you may say. But has it a rather deeper significance?

There are certainly rather deeper coincidences. After his abdication Edward VIII was given the title Duke of Windsor. He was exiled from Britain by the Royal Family and allowed to return for good only in a coffin. His home for the last twenty two years of his life was a mansion in the Bois de Boulogne which he rented from the city of Paris for a token rent. He died in 1972. His wife, the Duchess of Windsor continued to live there until her death in 1986. Both the Duke of Windsor and the Princess of Wales died in Paris, both outcasts from the House of Windsor. And both were connected to an Egyptian, one in death and the other in life, which would within a short space of time end in death. The last visit Diana made on that fateful Saturday at the end of August in 1997 was to the very same house in the Bois de Boulogne where the Duke of Windsor had lived. The house had been purchased by Mohamed al Fayed after the death of the Duchess of Windsor. Ironically, it seems that the house was about to be renovated for yet another woman who should have been Queen of England, another woman who had also been married to a Prince of Wales.
 

7 The Jupiter Theme

This book describes the curious coincidences which surrounded the destruction of Pan Am 103 over Lockerbie. For us, they began on 2nd December 1988, nineteen days before the aircraft was destroyed in the Scottish hills. The loss of this aircraft is related to the loss of Iran Air 655 six months earlier. It raises serious question marks over how much trust can be placed in the British government’s handling of the whole investigation. Several strange things happened to us, thanks to the British police, which caused us to ponder whether there was not some ulterior driving force behind the whole investigation. As in so many things, is not the British government driven ultimately from Washington? The coincidences point very clearly to the guilty party. It is not the one who is now in prison purely as a result of political blackmail. This ‘trial’ stands in the same proud traditions of the British justice system as did the cases of the ’Birmingham Six’ and the ‘Guildford Four’.

A brief summary of the strange coincidences surrounding the disaster is given in 'Lockerbie and 557'

A slightly more detailed  account of these strange coincidences is given in a paper which I gave at an Auckland University Symposium on aviation safety in 1995. The paper is entitled 'Problems with Probability '  It also discusses later related coincidences involving a New Zealand air disaster which also appear to suggest elements of either design or at least foreknowledge.